God is looking for people with willing hearts. Fortunately, He is lenient about what He defines as willing.
If I can say “God, I want to follow you,” that’s a good thing. But what if, being brutally honest with myself, I can’t really tell Him that? Then perhaps I can say “I want to want to follow you.” And if I can’t truly say that? Then maybe it’s “God, I want to want to want to follow you,” or “I want to want to want to want to follow you,” or … you get the idea.
No matter how many times I have to add “want to” to the declaration of my willing heart, that’s where God begins. Patiently and lovingly, our relationship starts right there.
Thank you for being brutally honest.